hey people.
i'm back from malaysia.
haix.
i don't feel like leaving there ya.
anw.
this is what i did.

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i watch christmas cartoons. XD
at night, head for malaysia.
train delayed.
11 than leave sg.

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reach grandma hse.
help out with the housework.
sleep the whole day.

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i snipped my hair.
and i read finish 2 books.XD

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i'm so bored.
nothing better to do.
watch tv and sleep.
auntie came up to visit my grandma. XD

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went to wash hair.
XD
than prepare to leave for sg.
and i saw grandma's reluctant smile and watery eyes.

last. i miss BABY of all. XD


hmms.
i'm so not ready for school...........

sorry for my imperfection...

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plenty of things to say.
first. bad news for me.
i got to solo humoursque on 010109.
Zzz.
in chai chee temple performance.
i'm so sick and tired of that freaking song.
me, hong yu, mei xian, and pei en going to solo.
haix.
first time. i'm going to screw up my solo.

yesterday talked on msn with charleane.
she didn't get in the syco.
and she's damn disappointed.
haix.
at first i thought she would get in and at least i could have a partner.
haix.
and those that i've told my mum that sure wouldn't get in.
they really are all out.
but there's this freaking guy.
who is ssssooooo freaking act cool.
the first time i see him i'm like so bu suang ready.
he got in. Zzz.
and he smokes.
but i heard is cello is like $50 000+
and is casing is $1000+
Zzz.
rich guy.
he should have went for SNYO not SYCO.
i heard from charleane he played beautifully in his choice piece.
and that's why he got in.
because 1 of the judges was charleane's instructor.
so she got to know all this.
i got in is because of my sight readin.
i'm the only 1 that played without mistake throughout.
and the judges thinks my rhythemic sense is kind of good. -.-
but the instrucroe for the cellist in syco like not very good lehx.
his face is as black as a wok.
haha.
and i heard from charleane he don't understand english.
and he's extremely bias.
and that's isn't good lurhs.
sobz. T.T

and.....
mrs tong have been asking me to go for boating.
people who are going are....
mustain, sanche, brende, si jie, yuanling mr tong, mrs tong, and their son.
Zzz.
all the people that are going are my seniors lo.
i'm so not close with them lo.
+mustain is there.
the more i don't need to talk.
no point talking when we're avoiding each other.
haix!
but my mum like ask me to go also.
go just to entertain my teacher.
Zzz.
so i'm going. reluctantly.
Zzz.
is like on 040109.
9 to 5.
8 hrs. i'm going to count down.
haix..............

nt blogging for a few days.
going malaysia tommorow.
so wish u guyz early merry christmas!!!

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random facts, random questions.
know more about you!!!!!!!!!!!!

1]  are you attached?
    yaya.

2] what is your mood now?
    emo.

3] what do you feel like doing right now? and why?
    cry. i don't know.

4] what's your partner's favorite colour?
    blue and white.

5] what are you thinking now?
    you don't have to know that.

6] what are you doing?
    answering the lame questions and listening to emo music.

7] what is your goal for life?
    get in SCO. XD

8] what age do you think you will get married?
    25/26?? idk.

9] are you planning to marry your current partner?
    no??

10] black and white. what do you prefer?
     black.

11] emo and hyper?
      emo.

12] what are your characteristics?
      hmms. irritating. talkative.

13] do you look pretty or ugly?
      ugly. the ugliest girl in town.

14] what does your bf/gf sees in you?
      how would i know? go ask him lo.

15] what do you think of yourself?
      ugly, useless.

16] what's your wish for the coming year?
      no wish.

17] who do you trust?
      baby and besties.

18] do you believe in long lasting relationship?
      no.

19] do you believe in first sight love?
      depends on what people. if it's on pretty people i believe, otherwise, no.

20] what do you want right now?
       to be left alone.

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yesterday went to parkway to shop LIKE HELL!!!
i became a shopaholic of all sudden.
but because i'm sssssssoooooo choosy, i only bought 2 shirt. T.T
bought a tank top and tee. ;D
so today i bought a skirt and a pair of shorts. XD
i'm sssssssooooooo freaking happy!!!!
sorry baby.
didn't reply your last message.
i went back at 11 and i discovered it.
but still didn't reply.
ps. -.-
today is dong zhi.
so this morning i woke up at 7.10.
and went market with grandma and mum.
haha.
came back around 10??
and we started to make rice balls.
XD i <3 rice balls!!!!!
took pics. XD
but my com is like so freaking lag.

shall upload next time. XD










<3 baby lots!!!!!

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XD
YYYYYYOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
my mood is super duper good today. XD
don't ask me why. because i don't know myself toos.
XD
hmm.
sent out the participation confirmation letter to SYCO today.
haix.
sad.
only me and gerald got in.
i thought we could get in representing ccss. T.T
all the pros from our school didn't get in.
HAIX!!!!!!!
and for me and gerald.
next year going to be his 'A' lvl. and mine is 'o' lvl.
well done ya.
they select people with important year next year.
haix.
later going to parkway parade with my family!!!.
mummy says that she want buy clothes for me. XD
finally............................
hmms.
i want.......
more tanktops.
more tees.
more skirt.
more short pants. XD
i want ear studs. XD
hmmss.........
christmas wish.
last long with baby!!!!!!!!!!!
6yrs, 5 yrs, 3yrs, 2yrs. ALWAYZ STICK TOGETHER OKS??(don't ask what izzit. its my besties's secret)
sssssshhhhhhh.
lmao.
hmms.
baby yesterday joined our -EMO- guild.
WELCOME BABY!!!!!
but they updated your name as small letter i for your last letter. XD
hahas.
but i retagged them le. no worries. ;D
hmm.
nothing else to blog. so. BB!!!!!!! XD


once shattered never mended.

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haix!!
grandma nagging as ever again.......
Zzzz.
this morning i practiced violin. ;D
haha.
hmmss..
today is gona be very very boring.........
HAIYO.
what to do lehz???

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haix.

i did abit of compre today.
than i started arranging the links on my blog. lols.
it's kind of messy lurhs.

anyway.
got track of my obs friend's blogs.
ooo. love ya guyz lots!

hmms.
i kind of starting to get sick lorx.
i like running flu and feeling cold, when there is a scorching hot sun shining out there.
i hope i don't get sick as a dog again.
haix.
feeling little dizzy. sobz.
what kind of life is this?

ehhhh...
yesterday right after we finish co, we went to eat dinner. old chang ki.
pathetic.
gerald say 5 mins only.
than everybody so kanchiong buying food.
and he said that the concert start at 7 when it's 7.30!!!
gosh.
than when taking mrt, kang yi was left outside.
so baby go pei him lo.
and they took other train.
and the train i took. i was SUAY enough to see melvin's gay partner, ting rui!
haix.
what a bad luck i have.
still got to bump into some freaking ass when school hasn't even started.
than reach NYP.
i saw shaolong on stage.
wakaka.
he look damn nurd.
and patricia says that he is HANDSOME!!
because she didn't know it was him.
HAHA.
i sat beside baby and elena.
didn't really go mad lurh.
because both me and elena were tired.
if not baby will suffer, don't need see concert liaox.
before concert start, kang yi and baby was talking.
and i don;t understand!
because is all games.
what shoot shoot thing.Zzzz
concert start. wants to sleep.
Zzz.
only the finale was nice.
the rest isn't.
haix.
and shaolong still tell me NYPCO how good how good.
anw.
this morning.
mosquitos are kissing me again.
i smacked 1.
haha.
the other one was found dead by my granma.
and she wanted me to pick up the corpse.
eeeeewwwwwwwww.
i'm very disgusted lor.
bro watching barney now.
i'm joining him!!
toodles.



<3 baby.

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woke at 9.  >.<
i'm getting more and more pig lurhs.
err.
anyway.
i got in to the syco.
happy and sad.
happy because i get in to syco.
and i prove to jas peh that i've more potential compared to what she thinks.
sad, because i'm going to be so damn stress next year.....
anyway.
got to thank mrs sandra tan.
if not for her encouraging me, i wouldn't have gone for the audition.
err.
my hmwk.
its finally getting lesser.
i'm left with 1 compre and 1 summary.
YES!!!!!
today going to have co till 5.
after that i think about 20 ppl will go to NYP for their concert.
i'll be 1 of them.
haix.
not sure is it a nice concert.
but shao long will be playing inside.
and.......
i don't know how to get my way back from there.
hahas.
anyway.
i just anyhow whack my way will do......



<3 you baby.

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hmms.
my boring life.
woke up, did eng's compre. Zzz.
after that. tortured my bro with the violin.
wahahaha.
and that's it.


haix.
yesterday went to violin class.
mr tong asked me to help mustain's student to tune the violin.
and i went in with the tuner.
and i see mustain.
Zzz.
i pass him the tuner and faster run off.
haix.
why do i have to meet him at this point of time??
i'm sad .
seeing him just remind me about the past.
haix.
mr tong wants me to go audition for cello for his private ________
and if i get in, i'm doom.
mus is in violin 1.
and as a cellist, i'll be sitting directly opposite of violin1.
haix.
+. if i continues to be mr tong's assistant.
i will be partnering mus.
how???

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"Love Survey"


You must answer Every question TRUTHFULLY!!!

01] Is there someone who you like at the moment?

- yup

O2] Have you ever given or been given a rose?

- nope.

O3] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

- o. i rarely watch movies

04] Do you believe in love at 1st sight?

- Nopee.

O5] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

- nope.

O7] Have you ever had your heart broken?

- duh. of cuz.

O8] What do you think about long-distance relationships?

- CMI

O9] Your thoughts on online relationships?

- even CMI. don't bother think about lasting.

1O] Would you rather date someone five years older or five years younger?

- 5 yrs older lurhs. more mature leh.

11] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?

- ya. lots of time.

12] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater?"

- no. they can always turn over a new leaf.

13] How many kids do you want to have?

- 2-3? y ask this?? i'm just 15.

14] Do you usually fall for the right boy/girl
- no. i fell for a wrong boy once!!

15] What colors make you think of LOVE?

- pink and blue?

16] What are your views on gay marriages?

- HAHAs. LMAO lo.

17] Do you believe you truly only love once?

- eehh.. i don't get this question.

18] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?

- no!! so old le. still remarry..

19] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?

- err... p6 i guess.

20] Do you think that someone likes you at the moment?

- how i know... no ba..

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45 things a girl wants but wont ask for

1. Touch her waist.  (Zzz )
2. Actually talk to her. (duh. stead le don't talk mehx??)
3. Share secrets with her. (you can choose not to)
4. Give her your jacket.  (i think gals have theirs)
5. Kiss her slowly.


Are you remembering this?


6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.


KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her. (depends on occasions)
13. Pull her onto your lap. (not a need lurhs)
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back. (fight your head lurhs)
15. When her friends say "I love her more than you", deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.  (she wouldn't believe)
20. Tell her the way you feel about her. (not a need i guess)


One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.


21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - only if you mean it.  (... like she will believe lo)
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her. (just see her face and you know when to talk and when not to--common sense ok)
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know! (i think will make her paiseh more than loved lo)


WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..


26. Don't lie to her.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.


ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT'S IMPORTANT.


31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).  (huh?? gt hint de ah??)
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. (this is damn true. they really will leave you) If she's upset, comfort her.


REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..


36. When people diss her, stand up for her. (obvious?? if not she wouldn;t feel secure with you, and will start hunting for another more secure guy)
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.


MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.


41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you're sitting on her.  (censored)


You'll never know when she needs just a little more love ..


 
 
my comments. some true some not. boys!! don;t take it seriously.  :)

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HAIX!!!
today going to have violin lesson again.
my double stopping scales!!!! i'm so going to get screwed up by mr tong.
i hasn't been touching my violin since the last lesson.
Zzz.
i NEVER practice my double stopping scales.
heard from kevin that today going to have some freaking test on that.
Zzz.
i'm like so doom lurhs.
can i don;t take grade8 next year.......
i will flunk it!!.
Zzz.
this morning woke up at 9+.
i'm so guai to do homework can...
i did english compre.
but the 1 that i did, one of the story wasn't complete.
so i didn't manage to do it.
whatever.
i just take it as i've done 1.
so i'm left with 2 compre 2 summary.
wakakaka.


hmms....
eh.... should i go temple on next yr jan??
its like on a sunday and it clashes with my CO lehx.
but (they) asked me to go.....
if i goes, i'm so going to be bored...
is like of all sudden i poped out in the temple out of nowhere again la..
haix.
but (they) said that (they) will pei me...
so.. maybe taking 1 sunday off??
supossingly (they) ask me to go yesterday.
lucky (they) told me that there's a buddhist test.
haha.
so i didn't go...
lols.
but whatever la..(they) want me go but (they) don't want me to whack (them) when (they) bullies me.
that is sssssssooooooo impossible.
lols.
ok.
that's about it.
toodles. XD

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err...
yesterday morning went co with baby.
as usual mornin is fenzu.
sianZ
during break time, me and elena went to east point to buy bubble tea. ;D
haiz.
dazu.
still like that lo.not much of improvement.
Zzzz.
finish co went to buy A cash with baby.
than he lost the a-cash.
haix.
abit sad sad for baby though.
but he's not sad lor.
Zzz
came home, mummy bought new dvd player.
damn cool, me and my bro kept playing with that player.
cause we are able to connect pur mp4 player to the player. LOLs 
than at night mummy confiscated my phone.
than cannot msg baby.
sry baby. made you worried. :(
today suppose to have cc co
haiz.
should go ma?

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hmms.
didn't really did much yas.
woke up late this morning.
than do hmwk.
finally my hmwk is 3/4 DONE!!!!
woots.
i'm like left with 3 compre and 2 summary.
i'm so going to complete it by next week.
zzz.
but...
i'm not sure if chinese has homework....
i'm quite doubtful of it...
aiya...
i think got some bao zhang bao dao or what thing...
Zzz. nvm lurhs..
never do tsk oso wouldn't do anything to me i guess. hahas.
afternoon, i played guitar.
i'm currently learning chords.
learning myself, so some kind of struggling lurhs
getting a teacher when i complete 'o' lvls. ;D
haix...
the dates of collecting my theory results is nearer.
so is the dates of releasing the results of syco audition.
how i wish that i'm kept in the dark for these 2 results.
haix. theory. i've got a feeling that i will fail.
syco. think will get in. bt i don't want to.
gcan i get in only in the year of 2010??
haix. some kind of regretted going for the audition.
if i get in, my o'o lvl is simply going to flunk.
and i've prepared a shedule if i get in syco. is so FULL.  -.-
haix..
pls pls pls pls pls.
don't let me get in....
zzz.
mei xian think she cannot get in.
if she really don't get in, i'm the first to die.
HAIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tommorow have co.
can ssee baby le.
err....
tommorow morning sure fenzhu until 10.30 de lors.
very bored when fenzhu lehx.
sobs.
must bring my suzuki to practice.
didn;t have a chance to meet cello teacher.
so"the swan" i;m learning myself.
Zzz.
almost finish le.
just need a little brush up.
hmms.
cannot play for zhang sheng.
if not i got to solo 1 more piece.
haix.

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hmms. shall start of with yesterday's chanting at temple.
err. went to take bus with mummy at 6.15.
we were suppose to take bus 59. but bus 59 went off, so we took 58.
58 was so damn slow because it didn't go to bishan by express way.
so both of us was kind of regretting taking 58.
should have waited for 59. haix.
reach temple. so glad that we wasn't leat.  :D
we started chanting at 8 and it ended at 11. (first session)
so got to wait till 2.30 for the next session.
me and mummy went to j8 to shop shop and eat.
so we didn;t had vegetarian food ofr lunch. hahas.
1.30. went back to temple.
lols.
than started chanting agan.
we stand and walk the whole temple for 2 and a half hours lurh.
leg pain.
lols.
after that 4.30 we start to eat vegetarian food.
but it's like eating in restaurant.
haha. the food was... not that bad lurh.
but because i drank 6 cups of tea before the food was serve, so i didn't really eat much.

anyway. THAT GUY was forced to apologise to me and mummy.
sry. apology not accepted.
it's only my mummy faking that it's accepted.
i wouldn't bother looking at you from now on.
your sister bullies my bro, and you keep scolding me vulgar.
isn't that rude??
ill-bred.
both you and your sister are ill-bred.
sry. didn't mean to say that. but that's the only word i could describe you.
because i tolerated your vulgars when i DON'T LIKE IT.
i HATE your whole family. u know. HATE???
don;t bother talking to me anymore because i wouldn't answer.
and stop givng me the pathetic look and make me sympathise you.
because mummy has told me that you've got NO values for me to sympathy.
forget about me forgetting you ok??
you will be transparent to me from now on.
infact, i should say your whole family, except your dad.
thanks for making me piss anyways, or else i've got no excuse for myself to stop talking to you.


oh ya.
got to thanks mrs and mr tong for the invitation to your newly born baby's full month celebration.
sry that i didn't make it.
congrats anyway!!!
actually... sort of didn't go because of mustain.
i knew he and sanche would be around.
wanted to avoid both of them so i didn't go.
not a very good idea to see mus when i know he's obviously avoiding me.



today..
i was kind of moody.
yup.
yesterday thought have been running in my head again.
hmms.
am i going emo???
hope not.
but received lots of comment from friends that i'm starting to get quiet.
well that's good isn't it??
i wouldn't offend people easily.
lols.
woke up at 9.30 this morning. was damn tired.
than ate breakfast and went to school.
wore slippers in.
hahaha~
security gurad tick me a few sentence about my wearings.
but let me in.
haha.
went to buy uni.
the skirt.
size 28. small.
size 30. DAMN BIG.
but no size 29.
haiz.
took 30.
the skirt is damn long.
so got to fold my skirt when school reopen.
haix.
my homework is still piling up.
got to do now...
so..... shall update tommorow maybe. :S
bb.






well.isomekindofmissingyou.

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haix.
so many days never see baby le.
i miss baby lots....
wait.
i cannot make my dear zi xuan jealous again. haha.
ZX!!! I MISS YA TOO!!





somethings can't be change.
truth is always hurting me.
learning to forgive and forget is a must.
learning to let go of things is too a must.
but when am i going to learn all this???
memories is the most precious gift that all of us are gave when we were born.
however.
sometimes irrelevant memories wouldn't make it better but worst.
memories isn't the best thing ever.
treasuring every moment might be better.
i've start to appreciate time, every hour, every second, friends, and family.
treasuring it, wouldn't make you regret after loosing it.
in life, there are just too many things awaiting us to appreciate and treasure.
looking back deep in the memories is just isn't what we're suppose to do.
life is like a flower.
it blooms, in a certain time, but withers after that.
life is like a flower, shortlive.
today we maybe pretty, but is temporary.
nothing is permanant.
who knows we may be ugly tommorow.
today we may be living happily.
tommorow we may die.
treasure every moment.


"flowers today are fresh and sweetly blooming.
 flowers tommorow are withered and fallen.
 our bodies too, like flowers will pass away. "


tuesday.
zzz.
didn;t blogged for a few days..
well, i simply went to the temple last few days to pray lurhs.
fri, sat and sun's night i overnight there.
man.
its terrible ok.
i'm so not use to the bed there.
and THAT GUY is very noisy.
hmms.
tommorow finally is the last day of the temple thingy.
so i wou;dn't be going to CO.
because they say tommorow all the god will be flying around in the sky. -.-
i don't believe. so i want to see.
don't know will get to see what god lehs... haha.
today. THAT GUY. shouted at me.
so rude.
i'm so pissed that i ran off at 1pm and did'nt finish the chanting session.
want bash me?? come lurh.
want play gangster izzit? come lurh.
you are at fault in the first place.
i've tolerated you so much!!!!
+ I'M MORE ELDER THAN YOU.
what the FISH you want huh??
shouting at me. scolding me. ransacking my inbox WITHOUT my permission.
don;t you know simple manners??
i've let you climbed to the PEAK of my head and what do you want??
no wonder you can't get a girlfriend.
WHO THE HELL WANTS SUCH TERRIBLE BF???
Zzzz.
i'm so pissed that i have to eat ice cream and drink bubble tea to extinguish the fire.

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haix!!!
going to temple later at night.
think is guang ming shan.
HAIX!!!
got to overnight there.
because have to wake up at 2a.m to start praying until 8.30a.m
sobz.
think 7 + taking bus down barhs.
than maybe 8+ or  going to reach there.
how am i going to sleep so early??
and how am i going to wake up??
haix.
i don't chinese prayers. i only know the pali prayer.
T.T
later when see the chant book, sure is all chinese de.
zzz.
hmms.
my homework are piling up.
it seems to be a never ending duty........
argh!!!
i'm still left 3 comprehension WITH summary.
Zzzz.
and social studies SBQ.
+ physics mcq and strucured questions............
so many.......
how the hell am i going to complete.
haix.

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-the rules you must obey if yiu're tagged.
(bt i'm not tagged. i'm emailed. cn i dun obey???)

1. each blogger must post about these rules.
2. each blogger starts with 10 random facts/habbits about themselves.
3. blogger are tagged, and need to write about their own in theier blog.
4. choose 5 people to get tag and list their names.( do not resend to the person who tagged you)
5. don't forget to ta them !!!



Zzz. 10 random facts and habits about me.

- i'm attached.
- i miss baby.
- i need music
- i've got 3 best friend.
- i'm not good in studies.
- i'm particular about the colour of my shirt and pant's when i;m going out. even to the market.
- i need my phone badly.
- i missed 1 of my friend. but not in contact and we're not friends anymore.
- i've got attitude problem.
- i'm a bookworm!!!


people whom i tagged.
- baby, diana, zi xuan, liying, hong meng.


to people whom i tagged:
there are 4 quizzes tgt including this. must do ALL!!! i will spot check.
punishment: will be prosecuted by me if 1 of them are not done!!!


1. taken or single?
   - TAKEN. ;D

2. do you like it??
   - yup.

3. do you still love your ex??
   - errr.got to think about it. guess not.

4. have you ever had you heart broken??
   - hell yes.

5. do you belief that cheating is bad?
   - yes. VERY.

6. are you missing someone special right now??
   - err. isn't baby special enough??

7. if someone liked you right now. would you want them to tell you.
   - yes............. so i can make them dislike me.........

8. do you believe in celebrating anniversary??
   - 1 yr. maybe. 1 - 11 months. nope. what's the point??

9. do you get butterflies when you're around your crush??
   - yup. heartbeat will race.

10. do any of your ex still have feelings for you??
    - idk. idc.

5 people to tag.
    - baby, zi xuan , diana , liying, hong meng


1. pick a word that begins wth you name.
   - jurong.

2. your ex shows up randomly at your house. what do you say??
   - o well. if you meant melvin. i not going to say a word, but slam the door after seeing him.

3. how many bedrooms are there in your house.
   - 3

4. is there a reason for your profile song??
   - yup.

5. i bet you're missing someone rith now.
   - o ya. i miss baby.

6. do you hate the last girl you're talking to??
   - zi xuan?? nope. i love her. wakakaka.

7. who was your last text message from??
   - baby <3

8. what time did you wake up this morning??
   - 9. 08

9. if someone liked you right now, would you like them to tell you??
   - ya. so i can think of ways to make him dislike me.

10. did you mean it when you say "i love you" last??
   - of course. i love baby.

11. is it ok if you kiss people when you're single??
   - YA!! duh.... no restricrion ma...

12. what is wrong with you right now??
   - i'm missing baby BADLY.

13. do you think you will be married in 10 yrs time??
    - 25 yrs old.... if the person i live wants me... probably yes??

14. would you kiss someone to make your stead mad??
    - YA!!! why not?? but i will only resort to this when baby make me very piss.

15. do you really belief exes can still be " just friend"
    - depends. exes who are not that petty, can. why not??

16. do you use T9 word or abc??
    - i wants to use T9. but hp spoil. so using abc currently.

17. do you tell your mum everything??
    - nope. hehe

18. who was the last person you cried for??
    - baby

19. have you told anybody you loved them today??
    - yup. baby.

20. how's your ex doing??
    - err. idk. dead i hope.

21. who can you trust??
    - baby, zi xuan, diana, stella, liying.

22. do you love the perso you last thought??
    - YUP!!! she's my beloved cousin.

23. people who are tagged to do the quiz.
    - baby, diana, zi xuan, liying, hong meng.
   


write down 11 names that comes to your mind now to start te quiz. DO NOT  look at the questions before doing it. tag 5 people to do the quiz.

1.  ming hao baby
2.  diana
3.  zi xuan
4.  stella
5.  liying
6.  clarence
7.  hong meng
8.  daniel chia
9.  gui fang
10.sok fang
11.huilin




- are number 1-5 your best friends??
  yupSSS. except no.1  : x

- among 1 and 2 who do you like more??
   errmm. both equal la.

- does 6 loves to eat alot??
   o yeah.. he loves treats.

- what is 7 favorite colour??
   don't know. i didn't even see him before.

- 4 impression about 1.
   err. my impression for him??oks.
   1. he's full of nonsense
   2. he's cute
   3. he's my darling.
   4. he loves me!!!

- is 11 cute??
   o ya. she is damn cute!!

- is 9 single or attached??
   attached. to a malay if i;m not wrong.

- how do you think about 4??
   o she?? we're good friends. i don't have any comments about her. bt i love her.  <3

- do 10 have any pets??
   err. i remembered her having a dog.

- can you accept when 2 is gone??
   gone?? meaning?? dead?? hell no!!!

- 5 person do survey
   baby, liying, zi xuan, diana, hong meng.


ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH..
i needs to shout.
why can.t old people stop nagging???
i CANNOT tolerate nagging!!!!! yet i've a grndma who start nagging at me from the time i get out of my bed till the time i get to bed.
how i wish to say SHUT UP to her.
i'm vex enough about my phone bills!!
even mum didn.t really scold me WHY SHOULD YOU BE DOING IT?????
i hate it when people keep nagging at me, and i just feel like smacking the person's face.

wtf?!?

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP


SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP 

SHUT UP.



o fuck.
i can't tolerate anymore.
so can you.....................

SHUT UP FOR

 ONCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stop nagging at me. because               


  I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!




i'm going MAD if this is going to continue........

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went for syco audition yesterday.
well.
i played a few notes well.
but because i've got no grade for cello, i seems good to the judges.
Zzz.
i don't want to get in already.
can i pls don't get in???
haix.
if i get in, 24 hrs a day would't be enough for me!!
i wouldn't have time to study.
i wouldn't have time for baby.
haix!!.
i'm kind of vex now.
nevermind.
just got to pray hard that i don't get in.
anyway.
yesterday met charleane, the cello assistant SL for co camp.
lols.
didn't expect her to turn up either.....
her cello went haywire yesterday. and she was panicking.
she just got to eat more rice.
she got not enough strength!!!.
met 2 nan chiau girls too.
bt from my memory is tat, 1 of them didn't even get into the camp audition.
and she just have the arrogant looks.
at first thought she was a pro.
afteer heard her playing, i was like....... worst than my juniors...
her rhythmis like all out la.
even se doesn't have a teacher her rhythm also can;t be that ridiculous right.
they played triplets as 3 beats. haix.
more pathetic than me.
got some bars that i didn't really know for te set piece.
so i went walking around and "stealing" the knowledge that i suppose to have for the piece.
well.
did get something from those syco people.
well.
sight reading was easy. 160bpm.
i cheated. i played 120.
but i delayed 1 of the notes because it was a high note.
set piece i played some wrong notes.
haix.
humoresque.
well.
not that bad.
miracle happened.
the highest note that i always can't get, i got it on the spot yesterday!!!
i was damn happy.
hope i could get it when i'm needed to solo this piece.
mummy tell me don't go syf if i get in syco............ how????



baby... i miss you... <3

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some effect that tsk made ut of the CO bbq pictures....















got to click on the links for full pics.


well.
first, i would like to wish all the people aving aids a happy world aids day!!!


yesterday went bugis to shop with mum and grandma.
hmms.
quite tiring though.
after that wen to take bus to chinatown for dinner.
went home was kind of late.
 today is my audition for syco.
hahas.
i gave up already.
because the pracitce time clashes with my violin time and my tution time..
haiz..
next year will be having a very pack shedule.
i dread for next year to come....
haix.


miss baby.... <3

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Sim Mei XIng =)
[jas]
gurl, 17
I'm living in rainbow town. I'm a innocent, naughty, and playful.
warning*** i bites.


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