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February 26, 2009,7:12:00 pm

i've got alot to say..
alot of inner feelings.
today is not my day.
i went of to school without baby.
its not really much of overslept, i could actually rush for the mrt to meet him up.
but i choose not to.
i think after yesterday of what he told me, i think i need to get use to not having him around me.

today.
smsed in class.
almost get caught by mr ho.
haix.
got to improve my "recipe" for smsing in class.

quarelled with her today.
because she wanted to challenge herself for not talking to me for 1 day.
firstly.
i am very particular about friendship and relationship.
don't ever tell me that you don't want to talk to me out of the blue.
because i will take it real and grant your wish.
secondly.
i'm not petty.
its not that i cant take jokes.
but as i said just now, i take friendship and relationship very seriously.
once you tell me to stop talking to you for a few days i cannot take it.
i got to have time to season to it so that you may challenge yourself and break your own record for all means.
ya. i'll feel sad and cry.
but i will keep it to myself.
i wouldn't let you guys have the slightest worry of me.
i will let you concentrate in whatever studies you got to do and whatever challenge you want to do.

thrs a secret underneath........

to her:
ya. its my fault for starting all this.
sry.
don't worry.
i will let you break your records ya??

to diana&stella.
i don't know when the hell are you going to see this.
but i just hope that what happens between me and her wouldn't affect both of you.
i hope our friendship between the 3 of us wouldn't be change, until she is happy for her records ya?
maybe this few days i wouldn't go eating with you guys i might go with qy.
its not b cause that i start to follow them.
but is because i need time to cool myself down kays???
hope you gals understand me k.
stay happy.=]

to baby.
i granted you of not talking to you on sat and sun till 8pm.
but what grant you should be more than your needs now.
you said you want to study, so you didn't want me to sms you from morning till 8pm.
i've now granted you the whole year of not smsing you.
you can have the hell time to study the whole year.
i wouldn't bother you anymore.
i wouldn't flood your phone with my smses.
i would't flood your ears with my frustration.
you can just go for your o lvl peacefully.
as for your concern.
you scared that we will break up after o lvl.
for your info.
i don't tink we can even lst till 1 year.
is like from june onwards u're not sending me home.
from august onwards you're not sending me home and stop smsing me till finish o lvl.
and all this is = to breakup.
i don't want to feel sad and distract my o lvl.
so.
today will be the last time you will send me home.
today will be the last time we sms.
today will be the last time we will be sweet to each other.
today will be the last time you hear my frustration.
and today will be the last time we act like steading.
from tommorow onwards everything will be different.
we will still be steading. no wrys.
but
w/o talking.
w/o laughter.
w/o kisses.
w/o sweetness.
w/o smses.
its only the name "stead" that makes people thing we are steading.
and last fri...
is our last outing together.
maybe i'm not like you who is like can survive w/o me.
i rather sad for 1 time.
and through out the whole year i will get season to this arrangement.
i don't want it to be everytime when exams are around to corner, we have to stop contacting.
its sudden.
i cannot take it ya....
i really. cant.....
may you get good results. i don't want to sacrifice for nothing.