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April 30, 2010,5:29:00 pm
using my lappy to blog. yay.
its finally friday.
not sure to be happy or sad.
happy cause i do't need to go to school for 2 days. =)
sad cause another week has past and gr8 exam is getting nearer and nearer to me. sad.
hadn't been practicing eh.
got to chiong.
school these few days was alright.
just that i had alot of question marks when the lecturer is talking.
somehow i prefer the classroom way of learning and not lectures.
writoral have been a big thing to me recently.
cause projects are never ending.
in school.
always crazy. =)
somehow got addicted in touching faizul's hair.
and i start to discover cute guys in my class. =)
haha.
i love my clique- Bin han, kenneth, Lance, Brenda. =)
had lunch with my beloved xian xian just now. <3<3<3
zhao wang is funny.<3
and baby is ignoring me again for his work. well done.
as long as it makes you happy.
i don't mind doin anything for you.
just like suffering in silence now, just for you to concentrate on your studies.
every act has a price to pay.
and my price for steading with you is to suffer in silence.
cause i know you wouldn't coax me.
or maybe is really like what you told me yesterday.
you're too lazy to bother about me.
this few months i've been keeping all my feelings from you.
2 years may seems short.
but to a person who is suffering alone like me is long.
i trie to understand you, that's why i kept so much things from you.
but you know what?
i really wish that you could see this blog and know what i'm really thinking.
but i know you wouldn't.
thr most hurtful things is that you are lazy to bother about me.
is alright.
i'll ry to accept all this shit that you're giving me.
i should really find a better one.
cause i believe i should be treated better and not like a piece of shit.
on the surface i'm crazy.
on the surface i'm happy.
but whenever i'm alone, another side of me comes out.
i'll stop pestering you like before.
so that you can concentrate on your work.
so that you can pump in more love and time to your books.
if you wana know what i'm up to now.
i can only say im exploding soon.
for your question that day.
yes.
i was angry.
i told you no.
cause i know you wouldn't bother coaxing me.
i gave you so much, yet this is what you're giving back to me.
great thanks to you.
cause i've realise somthing.
even though i don't look good.
i realise i'm kind of devoted.
i realise i can be treated beter by better guys out there.
if you're not gona change your attitude towards me, i'm going to change my soon.
not changing to the good way, but changing in the bad way.
Hello. I'm mei xing. I'm 17 years old. I love music, and i hate